Rant about relationships...

Relationships make you fat.

I have been in one for five years and I put on three stone since meeting him. I lost a bit of it, but ultimately never managed to keep it off. My life has started to revolve around food and today - whilst maintaining a good calorie level on my Skinny Girl Diet - he told me that he has seen a discount code for a pizza restaurant, and wants to order from them tonight.
You have to spend £50 for 50% off - do you know how much food that is?! I know when I am hungry I can finish it all, and then purge, but I want to stick to my diet and not deviate. If I do, I will gain more weight and never be able to get rid of it.

Thinspo to look at so I don't deviate from my diet

Relationships make you fat, but I won't let it anymore.

I am back (again) and ready to lose weight...

I have become so fat and no amount of exercise or healthy eating is helping me to lose weight.... I hate my body so much and I really need to lose weight.

I am planning on intermittent fasting from 8pm to 12pm, which is 16 hours and means that the window I have to eat in will be filled with small meals, which will always come to under 1000 calories.
As I have eaten at 9pm tonight, I will be fasting until 1pm tomorrow, but the longer I can fast - the better.

I graduate in a month and a half, but I really wanted to be 40lbs lighter than I am now and I had hoped that I would lose weight by eating healthily and being good with food. But instead, it appears as though I am going back to my old ways and eating less calories with lots more exercising. Hopefully, I can lose 40lbs quickly, as I have a new job in September and want to make a good impression on my colleagues. 

Reasons to lose weight:

- To look good in a dress (see below) - for events and my job.

- To feel more confident in myself

- To wear a bikini on the beach and not have to cover my body up with baggy clothes because I am too fat to show my body off.

I just want to be happy with my body and losing weight will definitely do that.

24 hours fasting...?

Well it was more like 25 hours without food.
I drank plenty of water on the side ^^

So basically, I was a bit dim and decided to do it on a day when work was busy and I was extremely busy working on the shop floor... But at the same time, I have come to learn that distractions are key to anything.

On the 17th June, I started my fast at 6:30pm, from which I started to count down 24 hours.

I didn't eat dinner that day because I didn't feel like it, but I started my fast after a bag of Proper Corn (my absolute favourite popcorn and really low in calories too!).
I made sure that I was drinking lots of water (and tea!) along the way.
I think 8 hours of this fast was sleeping, which made the beginning (the hardest part in my opinion) easier, because I couldn't be tempted to eat anything at all because I was asleep.

yes, I love Audrey Hepburn, way more than I
would like to admit, she is my idol.

Then, the first 5 hours after I woke up I didn't feel hungry at all and I got too complacent, thinking 'This will be fine, I won't feel hungry at all!'... How wrong I was... So at 1pm, my tummy started rumbling and I started to feel really lightheaded, but I thought of these quotes.















So it got easier, then I started to count down more, I thought that working out how long I had left would help curb my problem and my cravings. Which it really did.

By 6:30 I was so happy to know that I did a 24 hour fast and did it successfully. I struggled at times and yes there were moments when I thought that it could be easier to eat and get this over with, but really I would be cheating myself by eating.

It just goes to show that a bit of positivity and some discipline really go a long way.
Honestly, I would love to see if I could fast for a longer time next time I fast.
I am aiming to fast every Friday evening through to Saturday, as that is the best time for me to do it and I would love to see if I could even get to 48 hours without eating by next Sunday, but we will see when we get there and I will keep you updated!

Stay strong, Stay positive my lovelies!

Couch to 5ks...

Now, this is really new to me, but I have just started - in the last week - a couch to 5k challenge.
I really want to be fitter and therefore I need to do more exercise than just Zumba, which was very successful and I did lose a stone, but I think it is time to step up my game and learn to love running. In between university time, I have found that I tend to eat a lot more, so I am hoping that this will help to balance that out and perhaps even eliminate my need to eat more food... I don't know quite where my thoughts are, but I hope that it will all even out one day...

Why running you ask?

Because in my lovely, yet crazy way of thinking, I believe that it is the right thing for me to run... Now I am not a cross-country runner or someone who was ever any good at running in school. I was the slowest and the most clumsiest runner I have ever met. I literally have no balance whatsoever. With this, I hope to be fitter and thinner soon enough. But it's going to be a long and difficult few weeks ahead, but I hope I can do it...

Taylor Swift is my thinspo, if she can run, then so can I...

I would love to look like her

So wish me luck!

Stay strong and positive, my lovelies!