Bikini Thinspo

I have been feeling a lot of negative feelings towards my body recently and I hate it so much. My thighs are huge and my boobs have grown larger than they have been for a few years. I cannot wait to lose more weight.
I am fasting every other day and I am trying to eat less than 800 calories on the days that I do eat, so I am still boosting my metabolism and trying to eat something so I don't lose too much too quickly.
In a few months, I am going on holiday and I intend to go swimming and sunbathe. So I need to be thinner. This is why I am restricting more.

This is Bikini thinspo....

Skinny People...

There is no order to this blog post, just people that I want to look like and be like.

Retro Thinspo

I have been obsessed with the 1950s/1960s recently, so I thought I would share some of that thinspo with you.

I do not condone eating disorders, this blog is just to help me make sense of my thoughts and feelings.

I just want to be skinny, is that too much to ask?

I am heavier than I was a few months back and I couldn't be more embarrassed.

More bonespo...

I won't stop trying to lose weight until my body is as skinny as this...

Beachspo...

I don't believe what people say when they decide that 'every body is a beach body'...
There is a reason that I don't wear a bikini on the beach and that is because there is most definitely an unwritten rule. That rule is 'don't wear a bikini on the beach unless you are skinny'...
Which is true, no one on the beach wants to see a fat woman next to a skinny one, no matter how attractive they are. For me, I choose to stay away from shorts and bikini's because I don't want people reacting that way and being disgusted at having to see my half-naked body.

This is one of my reasons for longing to lose weight - so that I can look like the people below and show off my bikini-clad body to everyone who can see when I have lost all the weight.

I am back (again) and ready to lose weight...

I have become so fat and no amount of exercise or healthy eating is helping me to lose weight.... I hate my body so much and I really need to lose weight.

I am planning on intermittent fasting from 8pm to 12pm, which is 16 hours and means that the window I have to eat in will be filled with small meals, which will always come to under 1000 calories.
As I have eaten at 9pm tonight, I will be fasting until 1pm tomorrow, but the longer I can fast - the better.

I graduate in a month and a half, but I really wanted to be 40lbs lighter than I am now and I had hoped that I would lose weight by eating healthily and being good with food. But instead, it appears as though I am going back to my old ways and eating less calories with lots more exercising. Hopefully, I can lose 40lbs quickly, as I have a new job in September and want to make a good impression on my colleagues. 

Reasons to lose weight:

- To look good in a dress (see below) - for events and my job.

- To feel more confident in myself

- To wear a bikini on the beach and not have to cover my body up with baggy clothes because I am too fat to show my body off.

I just want to be happy with my body and losing weight will definitely do that.