Rant about relationships...

Relationships make you fat.

I have been in one for five years and I put on three stone since meeting him. I lost a bit of it, but ultimately never managed to keep it off. My life has started to revolve around food and today - whilst maintaining a good calorie level on my Skinny Girl Diet - he told me that he has seen a discount code for a pizza restaurant, and wants to order from them tonight.
You have to spend £50 for 50% off - do you know how much food that is?! I know when I am hungry I can finish it all, and then purge, but I want to stick to my diet and not deviate. If I do, I will gain more weight and never be able to get rid of it.

Thinspo to look at so I don't deviate from my diet

Relationships make you fat, but I won't let it anymore.

Skinny People...

There is no order to this blog post, just people that I want to look like and be like.

More bonespo...

I won't stop trying to lose weight until my body is as skinny as this...

Beachspo...

I don't believe what people say when they decide that 'every body is a beach body'...
There is a reason that I don't wear a bikini on the beach and that is because there is most definitely an unwritten rule. That rule is 'don't wear a bikini on the beach unless you are skinny'...
Which is true, no one on the beach wants to see a fat woman next to a skinny one, no matter how attractive they are. For me, I choose to stay away from shorts and bikini's because I don't want people reacting that way and being disgusted at having to see my half-naked body.

This is one of my reasons for longing to lose weight - so that I can look like the people below and show off my bikini-clad body to everyone who can see when I have lost all the weight.

Fasting...

I have been fasting for 20 hours now and I feel so empowered. I am in control. I can do this. Only 4 hours left and I will have been fasting for a whole day again. I am getting back into my old ways of preventing myself from eating and I know I have the power to control this and get through it. Looking at thinspo is really helping me to concentrate on not eating and thinking about what my goals are. I am going to exercise tonight after I have eaten my dinner.

I love knowing that I am in control of this and that I can do this.

Just a few of my favourite motivational quotes

I am going to look like this one day, I promise that to myself everyday. But as my last quote says, 'don't tell people, show them' and I am going to. No matter what.

Stay strong and skinny my lovelies!
xx

Another 24 hour fast and a binge, oh my!

Sorry I haven't posted in about a week, I have been super busy.

Binges...

On Thursday I binged on three slices of pizza and felt horribly fat and ugly. I cannot believe I let myself do that, after all of the hard work that I am putting into losing weight and I did that?! Then on Sunday I binged on chocolates... It really is heartbreaking, especially since I have been eating less than 1000 calories every day in between.
But, the only way I can keep myself calm in these situations is by thinking about this quote:

So I have been trying to make it up to myself...

24 hour fast...

This is the only conceivable way in order to lose some of the weight I put on, and actually I lost 1kg according to my scales! It was a lot easier to fast this time, compared to my first, because I was at home - doing Uni work and watching Skins (my new addiction... I am sure Cassie is like my soul mate) - and between both of those things (and playing Animal Crossing), I did 50 minutes of step and dance exercise, which burnt 400 calories that I hadn't even eaten! So that was a great start and I only ate 753 calories because I had to have dinner with my boyfriend or he would kill me.

I made sure I was drinking plenty of lemon water and I had two cups of green tea as well - I am really getting into Green Tea, I would definitely recommend it as it helps to boost your metabolism, as does lemon water and almonds - which are all things I love. Just remember that one almond is 7 calories, so don't eat too many!

So that is one way I have helped myself this week, and I am actually going to do another fast from Wednesday evening to Thursday evening as well, in order to keep the weight off even more.

Sickness...

When I was younger (and much thinner...), I used to feel sick when looking at food, which would help me to avoid it, then I found chocolate and other disgusting things which made me put on even more weight and made me the horribly fat human being I am today.
Anyway, I have adopted that trait once again, which is really helping me to avoid food and I hope to try and encourage it to take it's place in my head again by making me not want to eat and therefore not eat! It does make food shopping a bit difficult, as I cannot look anywhere without seeing food in front of my face.

Considerations...

I am thinking of doing the 2,4,6,8 diet, to try and boost my metabolism and speed up my weight loss even further. I am not sure when I am starting this but I will keep you updated!

Stay strong and beautiful! 

xx

Inspirations and Thinspirations...

One of my lovely friends makes thinspo videos and I love watching them (I also love the music that accompanies them...), so this post is about some of the websites and thinspirations that I use to keep me motivated.

The first three youtube videos are by a channel called In Another Life - by the lovely Milla - and she is (hopefully I think) going to continue posting more thinspo videos as time goes on.

I'm gonna show you - by Bebe Rehxa

Beautiful - by Bethany Dillon

New American - by Halsey

I love using Tumblr as my main thinspiration source because I have a lovely blog where I reblog or blog my own pictures and thoughts to do with thinspo. I love Tumblr because there is so much on the website to explore along with tips and tricks. 

Instagram and Pinterest are my next favourites, because there aren't as many tips and tricks to do with Ana, but there are more pictures of ideal bodies, which I love being able to save or like. But Pinterest is better as I am able to see different exercises and eating tricks, which you can then save to different boards.

More videos

I also love Before and After thinspo, as it keeps me positive about my weightloss journey.

Remember that Rome wasn't built in a day and neither is Ana. Ana is a journey that may take a while, but you can start to see the difference with time!

Stay strong. Stay positive my lovelies!

xx

24 hours fasting...?

Well it was more like 25 hours without food.
I drank plenty of water on the side ^^

So basically, I was a bit dim and decided to do it on a day when work was busy and I was extremely busy working on the shop floor... But at the same time, I have come to learn that distractions are key to anything.

On the 17th June, I started my fast at 6:30pm, from which I started to count down 24 hours.

I didn't eat dinner that day because I didn't feel like it, but I started my fast after a bag of Proper Corn (my absolute favourite popcorn and really low in calories too!).
I made sure that I was drinking lots of water (and tea!) along the way.
I think 8 hours of this fast was sleeping, which made the beginning (the hardest part in my opinion) easier, because I couldn't be tempted to eat anything at all because I was asleep.

yes, I love Audrey Hepburn, way more than I
would like to admit, she is my idol.

Then, the first 5 hours after I woke up I didn't feel hungry at all and I got too complacent, thinking 'This will be fine, I won't feel hungry at all!'... How wrong I was... So at 1pm, my tummy started rumbling and I started to feel really lightheaded, but I thought of these quotes.















So it got easier, then I started to count down more, I thought that working out how long I had left would help curb my problem and my cravings. Which it really did.

By 6:30 I was so happy to know that I did a 24 hour fast and did it successfully. I struggled at times and yes there were moments when I thought that it could be easier to eat and get this over with, but really I would be cheating myself by eating.

It just goes to show that a bit of positivity and some discipline really go a long way.
Honestly, I would love to see if I could fast for a longer time next time I fast.
I am aiming to fast every Friday evening through to Saturday, as that is the best time for me to do it and I would love to see if I could even get to 48 hours without eating by next Sunday, but we will see when we get there and I will keep you updated!

Stay strong, Stay positive my lovelies!