Rant about relationships...

Relationships make you fat.

I have been in one for five years and I put on three stone since meeting him. I lost a bit of it, but ultimately never managed to keep it off. My life has started to revolve around food and today - whilst maintaining a good calorie level on my Skinny Girl Diet - he told me that he has seen a discount code for a pizza restaurant, and wants to order from them tonight.
You have to spend £50 for 50% off - do you know how much food that is?! I know when I am hungry I can finish it all, and then purge, but I want to stick to my diet and not deviate. If I do, I will gain more weight and never be able to get rid of it.

Thinspo to look at so I don't deviate from my diet

Relationships make you fat, but I won't let it anymore.

More bonespo...

I won't stop trying to lose weight until my body is as skinny as this...

Beachspo...

I don't believe what people say when they decide that 'every body is a beach body'...
There is a reason that I don't wear a bikini on the beach and that is because there is most definitely an unwritten rule. That rule is 'don't wear a bikini on the beach unless you are skinny'...
Which is true, no one on the beach wants to see a fat woman next to a skinny one, no matter how attractive they are. For me, I choose to stay away from shorts and bikini's because I don't want people reacting that way and being disgusted at having to see my half-naked body.

This is one of my reasons for longing to lose weight - so that I can look like the people below and show off my bikini-clad body to everyone who can see when I have lost all the weight.

Fasting...

I have been fasting for 20 hours now and I feel so empowered. I am in control. I can do this. Only 4 hours left and I will have been fasting for a whole day again. I am getting back into my old ways of preventing myself from eating and I know I have the power to control this and get through it. Looking at thinspo is really helping me to concentrate on not eating and thinking about what my goals are. I am going to exercise tonight after I have eaten my dinner.

I love knowing that I am in control of this and that I can do this.

Just a few of my favourite motivational quotes

I am going to look like this one day, I promise that to myself everyday. But as my last quote says, 'don't tell people, show them' and I am going to. No matter what.

Stay strong and skinny my lovelies!
xx

After a long time... Thoughts.

I have not posted in ages, because I have been going through some personal things that have prevented me from posting. I have put on like 7lbs since the last time I posted, which is so disgusting, because fasting was really starting to help me to lose weight. That is why tomorrow I am fasting all day and after that I am going to eat small lunches of crackers and fruit. My dinners will be nibbled and thrown away, because I cannot do this to myself anymore. I was looking at old photos of myself the other day and it has occurred to me that I have been this fat for most of my life and I will not stand for it. I cannot let myself get down because I have apparently 'lost' the genetic lottery. That is not how it works, if I work for it, it will happen. I have gained weight and I will hate myself forever over it, but I am going to work for this from now on!.

 I want to look like this girl, with her thigh gap and skinny arms and body. I would die for this body.

I will definitely get my collar bones, my ribs will stick out and my thin thighs.

Another 24 hour fast and a binge, oh my!

Sorry I haven't posted in about a week, I have been super busy.

Binges...

On Thursday I binged on three slices of pizza and felt horribly fat and ugly. I cannot believe I let myself do that, after all of the hard work that I am putting into losing weight and I did that?! Then on Sunday I binged on chocolates... It really is heartbreaking, especially since I have been eating less than 1000 calories every day in between.
But, the only way I can keep myself calm in these situations is by thinking about this quote:

So I have been trying to make it up to myself...

24 hour fast...

This is the only conceivable way in order to lose some of the weight I put on, and actually I lost 1kg according to my scales! It was a lot easier to fast this time, compared to my first, because I was at home - doing Uni work and watching Skins (my new addiction... I am sure Cassie is like my soul mate) - and between both of those things (and playing Animal Crossing), I did 50 minutes of step and dance exercise, which burnt 400 calories that I hadn't even eaten! So that was a great start and I only ate 753 calories because I had to have dinner with my boyfriend or he would kill me.

I made sure I was drinking plenty of lemon water and I had two cups of green tea as well - I am really getting into Green Tea, I would definitely recommend it as it helps to boost your metabolism, as does lemon water and almonds - which are all things I love. Just remember that one almond is 7 calories, so don't eat too many!

So that is one way I have helped myself this week, and I am actually going to do another fast from Wednesday evening to Thursday evening as well, in order to keep the weight off even more.

Sickness...

When I was younger (and much thinner...), I used to feel sick when looking at food, which would help me to avoid it, then I found chocolate and other disgusting things which made me put on even more weight and made me the horribly fat human being I am today.
Anyway, I have adopted that trait once again, which is really helping me to avoid food and I hope to try and encourage it to take it's place in my head again by making me not want to eat and therefore not eat! It does make food shopping a bit difficult, as I cannot look anywhere without seeing food in front of my face.

Considerations...

I am thinking of doing the 2,4,6,8 diet, to try and boost my metabolism and speed up my weight loss even further. I am not sure when I am starting this but I will keep you updated!

Stay strong and beautiful! 

xx

Diets..

I wanted to make a post to share some diets, mainly the ones that I would like to try and have a go at soon. 

Fasting:

This is one that I did blog about the other day because I did it for the first time for 24 hours properly.

One thing that you must remember when you are fasting is that drinking water is absolutely key to doing this! You must have at least (minimum) one sip of water an hour - if not more. The body can go days without eating, but you must drink something. 

 Angel Diet:

Funnily enough, I love apples so I think I could do this diet. Victoria's Secret models are my thinspirations and I would love to look like them. I also really love running so it isn't much of a difference, so I would love to try this one day.

 The 10 Day Challenge:

This one sounds extreme, but I am sure with a little bit of discipline it should't be too hard to tackle, also you are able to eat up to 500 calories still in order to get the best score. I love keeping time and keeping score, so this could be the perfect one for me to try.

2468 Diet

This is a diet in which you go through the 200s until you reach 800 calories, and like the other image says, you then restart the diet. This is a good one as you can choose whether you fast for a day or whether you restart the diet. It could be done just the two times, or it could be done however many times you wanted to because the diet is very open. 

Skinny Girl Diet

This diet could easily be done, as it is only 30 days, which is a month (in a non-leap year!) and it is very manageable as you can eat small amounts. You only have to fast once on this diet if you prefer not to fast. Or if you are new to Ana, it could be better to do this as you can still eat, but you are still restricting your diet, which is a positive first step to take towards ana. 

The ABC (Ana Boot Camp) Diet:

This is one I definitely want to do... I could get through the others, but I am not so convinced about this 7 week diet. With some definite motivation and thinspo I think I could do this. But not for a while yet...

So, I have given you an idea of the different types of Ana diets that you could try. I would love to have a go at all of these at some point in the very near future - as I need to lose weight so it would highly benefit me. 

I cannot wait to try some of these and tell you how they went!

Stay strong. Stay positive, my lovelies!

xx